Victoria Beckham is sharing new details about her “incredibly unhealthy” past eating disorder that left her losing “all sense of reality” and self-worth.
“When you have an eating disorder, you become very good at lying, and I was never honest about it with my parents,” she shares in the new Netflix docuseries, “Victoria Beckham.”
“I never talked about it in public. It really affects you when you’re being told constantly that you’re not good enough and I suppose that’s been with me my whole life.”
The Spice Girl member, dubbed Posh Spice, 51, admits to being stung by the constant criticism surrounding her body.
“I’ve been everything from Porky Posh to Skinny Posh,” she says in the doc. “I mean, you know it’s been a lot, and that is hard. I had no control over what’s been written about me, pictures that were being taken, and I suppose I wanted to control that, you know, control it with the clothing.”
“I could control my weight,” she continues, “and I was controlling it in an incredibly unhealthy way.”
Victoria recounts being weighed on national television in 1999 six months after she’d given birth to her first child, Brooklyn Beckham, 26, whom she shares with husband David Beckham.
“We laugh about it and we joke about it, when we were on television,” she says, “but I was really, really young and that hurts.”
David adds that during those years, “People felt it was OK to criticize a woman for her weight…there were a lot of things happening on TV then that won’t happen now, that can’t happen now.”
Victoria explains that she began to “doubt myself and not like myself” and slowly began to “lose all sense of reality.”
Body dysmorphia began to develop with the “Wannabe” singer becoming “very critical of myself. I didn’t like what I saw.”
The former pop star first opened up about her struggles in her autobiography, “Learning to Fly.”
Though she has a healthy relationship with food now, there’s still one thing she stays away from.
“I haven’t touched chocolate since the ’90s,” she scoffs when David asked if she wanted a piece. “I’m not going to start now.”
“Victoria Beckham,” which premieres on Netflix Thursday, follows the singer-turned-designer as she prepares for a fashion show in Paris, while also looking back on her life and features interviews with Anna Wintour, Eva Longoria, Tom Ford, and Donatella Versace.
